assalamualaikum...

i'm sad... tomorrow dah nak pergi PERMATA... tapi hari ni aku sedih... why? well... coz aku rasa cam susah sangat nak puaskan hati semua orang... memula pagi tadi bina ajak jumpa... but too bad... aku dah ada plan ngan mama petang nih and tonite nak gi tengok football match ngan dia... so... bila aku kata tak boleh... terus dia "fire" aku... sampai aku tak leh nak jawab... and bila aku rasa aku dah ada peluang nak jawab... terus..."klik" dia cut off the line... so sad... she said... i've changed a lot since i'm with him.... it's not that i don't want to spend time with her or other friends... but i have no time... and whenever i'm free... they're not around.... so... what can i do?? right after that... mama pulak decide to cancell today's plan... she said..."well.. it's ok... you go ahead... don't worry 'bout me... i'm just preparing myself for the future..." bila dia kata cam tu tadi... straight away aku nangis... sedih giler aku rasa... i can't even talk.... sedih sangat aku rasa... and as usual... he's the one that i think could understand me... even masa cakap ngan dia pun tadi... aku nangis... i feel so sad... semua orang terasa ngan aku... i don't know how to satisfy everybody... he says... "you should spend more time with your mama... you've spent most of your time with me... she needs your attention too..." and macam biasa... i cried... i really hate when ada orang yang tak happy sedangkan i'm happy... tak sangka ada orang yang sedih... i've decided to spend the day alone... my plan with him pun dah cancelled... but he managed to join me... tak jadi golfing... so.. he accompanied me shopping... i really appreciate it... yang... thanks a lot...