Raya story

Assalamualaikum...

Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir Batin.

How was your Raya celebration? Mine was juz so-so.

One thing I realized bout this year's raya. I'm celebrating it dengan rasa rindu. Rindu pada semua. Rindu dengan suasana hari raya yg lepas2. Especially rindu pada arwah nenek. Every year, without fail, kitorang akan balik PD one day before raya coz mama is my nenek's org harapan. She'll wait for her anak cucu dekat depan pintu rumah. Memang itu tempat dia. Kalau pun dia x duduk kat situ, dari dalam bleh dengar dia cakap.. "masuk lah..". Nenek dah nyanyuk. So, kejap2 dia akan tanya whether dah siap masak or not. But not this year. Terasa kosong. Terasa sunyi.

The moment kitorang sampai kat kubur, hati aku rasa sebak. I juz miss her so much! Rindu dengan telatah nenek. Even dia nyanyuk and banyak banyak tanya, tapi kitorang, anak & cucu dia tetap layan kerenah dia. Because we love her so much. Sejak nenek meninggal few months back, ni baru la ada kesempatan datang 'visit' umah baru nenek. Bila teringat balik her kerenah... Air mata ni laju je mengalir. Sesungguhnya aku rindu yg amat sangat kat nenek.


I miss the keriuhan berhari raya. Mama ada 11 org adik beradik. Juz imagine bila semua org berkumpul. Xyah panggil org lain, rumah nenek will be bising giler. Yg otai2 lepak kat main hall. The kids playing outside. The teenagers will be at the 2nd hall. Chit chatting. Sometimes we'll join the otai2 utk menyibuk2. Nenek will be sangat garang during hari raya. Coz dia x suka budak2 kuar masuk umah. So, bila the kids dok lari keliling rumah, surely nenek akan bising. Those yg x tau keadaan nenek, surely terasa hati. But being her anak & cucu, kitorang dah masak dah dgn that situation. Biasanya rumah no 7, Lorong Kurau 1 ni memang meriah dengan anak cucu nenek. This year, rumah ni umpama rumah tinggal...


This year, anak2 nenek semua beraya sendiri2. Serious, x best. Usually, time Raya la kita berkumpul and that is the only time *selain kenduri kawen* utk jumpa dengan semua your uncles, aunties, cousins, nieces and nephews. Susah nak percaya, but to be honest, I miss the whole big family...

A part of missing my nenek and my whole big family, I also miss my Papa and the family especially my sister. Pagi raya setakat call and wish him je. Pas tu, I miss my Along. This year, kitorang beraya 3 beranak je.

And most of all, sepanjang raya... I miss you, my dear sweetheart!!